The Holy Ache: Where Emptiness Becomes Light

The Holy Ache

Where Emptiness Becomes Light

There are days in the desert when the wind carries no song.

When the silence presses heavy on the chest, and the horizon looks like it will never change.
There are days when a sorrow arises, ancient and unnamed,
a subtle ache, a longing for something you cannot quite describe.

This is not the absence of the Divine.
This is Her arrival.

The feeling that something is missing is not a mistake.
It is an invitation.

The ache is holy.

It is the whisper of your soul remembering what the world has made you forget.
It is the glimmer of the Light beyond form, stirring behind the veil.

“Be in harmony,” Mary says in her Gospel.
“If you are out of balance, take inspiration from the manifestations of your true nature.” (Gospel of Mary, Logion 4)

But how do we find inspiration in sorrow?

Mary Magdalene teaches us that the path is not upward, but inward.
That peace is not found in denial of pain, but in the presence we bring to it.
That every feeling of “not enough” is a threshold.

We tend to chase fullness. We want answers.
But in the Magdalene Path, it is the emptiness that holds the key.

She says:

“Attachment to matter gave birth to passion without measure.
Then trouble arises in the whole body.” (Gospel of Mary, Logion 8)

This is not a condemnation of the body, it is a revelation.
When we attach too tightly to outcomes, form, or certainty,
we lose the subtle music of the soul.

But when we sit with the ache,
when we do not rush to fill it,
we hear something else.

We hear Presence.

We feel that the ache is not proof that something is wrong.
It is proof that something holy is awakening.

The mystics say that God hides in the wound.
That the seed of light is planted in longing.
That sadness is not a lack of light,
but a place where light is gestating.

You are not broken.

You are becoming.

You are not lost.

You are remembering.

And the sadness?
It is not emptiness.

It is the hollow of the chalice,
awaiting the wine.

It is the silence before revelation.
The inhale before the breath speaks truth.

Mary’s voice reaches us now, not from a pedestal, but from within:

“Where the mind is, there is the treasure.” (Gospel of Mary, Logion 5)

So ask yourself:

What if your longing is your treasure?

What if the ache is the place She will come to meet you?

What if you could bless your sadness as sacred soil?

Today, let your sadness be the prayer.

Let your tears be anointing oil.

Let the ache become an altar.

And know this:
You are never missing anything.
You are remembering everything.

Shabbat Connection: The Resting Place of Longing

As the sun sets and Shabbat begins, we are invited not only into rest, but into revelation.

Shabbat is a sanctuary for the soul. And the very place within you that feels empty, lost, or incomplete is where Shekhinah descends most intimately. The longing you carry, the ache you feel, is what opens the gates to Presence.

It is written in the mystic tradition that on Shabbat, the soul receives an “extra portion”, a second soul, a deeper breath, a closer embrace. What if this “extra soul” is the light hidden in your sadness? The holiness hidden in your hunger?

Yeshua honored Shabbat not through doctrine, but through presence.
He taught in the temples, yes, but also on the hillsides, around tables, through silence. He reminded us that Shabbat was made for the soul, for rest, for return, not for rule.

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest.”
— Yeshua (Matthew 11:28)

And Mary Magdalene, as his closest companion, carried this rhythm of sacred rest.
She knew that the ache in the soul needed space to breathe. That the soul could not find the Light unless it paused to feel the darkness.

Shabbat is for everyone.
Beyond religion.
Beyond roles.

It is the weekly remembrance that we are already enough.

In the ache, the light waits.
In the stillness, Shekhinah speaks.
And in the rhythm of Shabbat, we return to the vow we made long before time:
To be whole. To be present. To be free.

Tonight, as you light your candles and bless the wine and bread, let yourself feel the ache, not to fix it, but to honor it. For it is there, in the sacred silence, that She speaks.

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Shabbat Shalom.

Ahava,
Ana Otero

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